Why not me?
I have asked myself a similar question over this past year, minus the "cheerleader" part. Why can't I just be 16 and drunk again, seems to work for so many these days! Well, looks like I am not the only one who thinks so. The statement above is a title of a book that I was recommended to read. It does not try to teach you how to get pregnant but more on how to deal with not getting pregnant, which I need. It hasn't come yet but when it does, I will definitely let you know what I thought about it.
And it can't come any sooner. In less than 7 days, two of my semi-close friends announced they are pregnant. I am over the moon for both and jealous of each.
Let's start with the first one.
Friend #1 - We are more like acquaintances so we don't really share personal information with each other on an ongoing basis. I knew through another friend she was having difficulty conceiving her second child but when I saw she announced she was having twins, I just had to find out if she used fertility or not. Well, she did and I think it was her first IVF. So, I am jealous that it worked for her on the first time. I am jealous her doctor transferred two instead of one like mine did. I am jealous that I may not be as lucky. I do, though, am overly ecstatic for her knowing that she has spent two years to get to this point and it is wonderful she can complete her family. Actually, she is going to be a great sounding board in the coming months since she is my first and only friend I know who has done IVF.
Friend #2 - We are closer than Friend #1 so when I saw her last week and she seemed to be off the diet bandwagon, I just knew, but I didn't ask. Fast forward to Sunday when we met for brunch and sure enough, she is 9 weeks along. The kicker? She got married in October, decided to try in December and based on an app (an app!!!!) she figured out when she was ovulating that month and bam!! First time, direct shot, homerun, she is pregnant. And when I told her to stay off the baby boards, she responded with "what is a baby board?". So here goes, I am jealous she doesn't know what baby boards are the stress/anxiety/happiness/hope they create. I am jealous she didn't have to pee on more than one stick. I am jealous that she will be welcoming a baby to this world this year.
Jealousy is a bad thing, I have always said it. I use the word loosely in this blog. I am truly happy for both friends. I know them well and I know they will be amazing mothers. My hope this week is that I can join them in their journey sooner than later.
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